..Rainy Days..

Rainy days are days that get you thinkin'
sometimes so much that you sink IN
to yourself.

T.V shows and movies make up most of my day
but then thoughts creep in, they make their way.

I sit inside looking out at the grey sky,
asking myself why?

I'm not a little boy anymore with tears in his eyes,
no..not the ones that you cry,
just the ones that come from the question "why?"

Will smith asked it best when he said "Why doesn't he want me?"
That's my question..Why don't you want me?

I remember back in the day, the school days..
when the school bell rang,
and in my heart sang.. a song of a father
who one day might be there.

I was too young to articulate the uneasiness within
so i subsided it, not really knowing i was right...
to feel some sort of way,

heh.. rainy days..

i'm older now, almost a man
no, not my age, but what i've accomplished
setting goals, making plans..